Lost and scared.
You’re young, queer, with unsupportive parents and not the best bunch of friends.
You have trouble knowing your self worth. You are worth only as much as you think you are. So, you need to focus on you. Maybe write down five things about you that you love? If you think you can’t find them search. Look in the mirror at yourself and say things like ‘I have nice eye lashes, eyes, and I love myself.’ You are not going to believe it at first. That’s okay, but keep going. With every day you will get better. You will realize how special you are.
Surround yourself with positivity. Work hard to take the negative words out of your life.
I need you to know that I’ve been there before. I know how it feels. You are me, and my heart breaks knowing what you are going through.
Here is the thing, you are not lost. You are where you need to be and you are going to be so damn strong when you come out of this. The world is yours and you will grab it. I love you. You got this!


Advice for my besties, lost and scared. You’ve got this. Positivity. You are amazing!

♬ Always Remember Us This Way (from A Star is Born) – Piano Version – Chris Margaritis

Chicken Parmesan with Lemon Alfredo and Squash Noodles.

This weekend was full of fun activities. I feel a little guilty because we left our bubble and went to Temecula, Southern California wine country. We hung out with friends, including boat rides, vodka, carbs, and wine tasting. I check my blood sugar, and I have not gotten it under control today. There is good news though, my average was way down last week from the previous week. I know it will get it under control, but today I have a little sore throat, probably from all the crap that I ate. I know I’m just dramatic again, and all will be fine.

This morning I opened up the freezer and discovered that I had these chicken breasts; the package said ‘thinly sliced,’ and when I think of thinly sliced chicken, my brain immediately goes to Chicken Parmesan, parents used to make when we were kids. They were made in a mixture of parmesan, then dipped in egg and then in breadcrumbs. I searched the internet and searched through multiple recipes. This is the one that I based my recipe on. Instead of almond flour or regular panko I used pork panko.

I started by cracking two eggs into a bowl and scrambling them

Then I made a mixture of the pork panko, shredded parmesan, dried oregano, and garlic powder.

I used this ghee, which is just clarified butter. You can make it yourself if you want to, but I get this at Costco, and I love using it. Ghee has no milk fats in it, so it has a higher smoke point than regular butter.

After you’ve let the chicken rest in the fridge, put a saute pan on the stove on medium heat and add a tablespoon of ghee to it. Once the pan is warm, add the chicken, you want it to have a little bit of sizzle, but you don’t want the pan to be so hot that the chicken cooks quickly.

Chicken Parmesan with Lemon Alfredo and Squash Noodles

  • Servings: 3
  • Difficulty: Medium
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A keto chicken parmesan that won't leave you missing the original


    Chicken Parmesan
  • 3 chicken breasts thinly sliced.
  • 2 eggs beaten
  • 1 cup pork panko
  • 1 cup shredded Parmesan
  • 1 tablespoon garlic powder
  • 1 tsp. dried oregano
  • Alfredo Sauce
  • 1 cup heavy cream
  • 2 tablespoons butter
  • 1 tablespoon chopped fresh garlic
  • 1/4 cup shredded Parmesan
  • Salt and Pepper to taste.
  • 2 spiralized squash or frozen noodles
  • 1/2 fresh lemon


  1. Preheat oven to 350.
  2. Beat two eggs and put them aside in a bowl.
  3. Take pork panko, shredded Parmesan, garlic powder, and oregano, and mix on a plate.
  4. Put each chicken breast in the egg mixture and then the pork panko mixture.  Make sure that the entire chicken breast is covered.  Put on plate and put it in the fridge for at least half an hour to rest.
  5. Put a sauté pan on the stove on medium heat and add ghee or olive oil to the pan.  Let warm-up and then add the chicken breasts to the pan, making sure not to crowd the pan.  Brown on each side.  Place on a wire rack on a sheet pan.  Once all pieces are browned out in the oven.  Check them after ten minutes with a thermometer.  Once they reach 165 degrees, take them out of the oven or turn the oven off while making the Alfredo sauce.
  6. While cooking, in the same pan that you cooked chicken in, add two tablespoons of butter, let melt, and add fresh garlic.  Cook about one minute and then add heavy cream.  Bring to a simmer and then lower about 5 minutes, whisking occasionally.  Once reduced, add the Parmesan and stir. Then add the juice of half a lemon, season with salt and pepper to taste.
  7. If using fresh spiral squash, cut and put in a microwave-safe bowl. Set in the microwave for two minutes. 
  8. Put the noodles on the plate and put the sauce over. Then chicken breast, if you like, add Alfredo sauce to the top of the chicken.  Garnish with dried oregano or fresh parsley. 

There is a long list of things that you can’t have when you discover that you have diabetes. Let me rephrase that; you can have them, but they will eventually kill you. I’m talking about things like rice, cakes, cookies, sugar, bread, and PIZZA. I have a love-love relationship with pizza. When I was younger, I worked at Domino’s pizza; it was one of the best jobs I’ve ever had. It was mindless; the people were fun, etc. I could go to work, make some pizza, and when my shift was done, I didn’t have to think about it. As you get older, you begin to realize how important those jobs are.

I’ve gone through many a pizza stone. I used to make my dough, freeze it and make myself pizza for dinner when I wanted it. When I was a kid, we lived on Long Island, and we went to this place called Frank’s Pizzeria. They made the best Sicilian pizza in the world. Maybe it was because I was a kid, I’m not sure, but I’ve been searching for something like that out here in Los Angeles. I even love the greasy bottom of the pizza hut deep dish pizza. It turns out that I’m a simple person.

You all know that I’ve been obsessed with the chaffle’s lately, so I had a great idea, why not make a pepperoni chaffle pizza? I gathered all of my ingredients. I’ve been adding a little bit of almond flour to my chaffle’s because it makes it a little bit more like bread.

I mixed the egg, almond flour, cheese, oregano, onion powder and garlic powder into this measuring cup while I heated up my waffle maker. I used the normal-sized waffle maker because I wanted to have my own big personal pizza!

Once the waffle maker was heated up I placed the mixture into it. First, I added a thin layer of the Mexican cheese to the bottom of the waffle iron, then I put the mixture down and put a little bit of parmesan and Mexican cheese on top. You can use whatever cheese you want, this was just what I had on hand.

Once it came out of the waffle iron, I put it on a sheet pan with some parchment paper.

Next, I put some Rao’s marinara sauce on the waffle. I like Rao’s because it has a little less sugar than the other brands.

Then I put a thin layer of parmesan cheese on top of the marinara sauce.

Next, I stacked up that pepperoni. Get it piled nice and high; who doesn’t love a lot of pepperonis?

Then I put some more Mexican cheese on it and also added some parmesan.

I put it in a 425-degree oven for five minutes; next time, I think I’ll give it a few more minutes to get the cheese nice and melted.

I love how the waffle lines help you distinguish between the four different pieces.

That’s it! Enjoy. It was completely delicious and every time I want pizza I’m going to make it this way from now on! I think, with a nice salad, this is the perfect meal.

Chaffle Pepperoni Pizza

  • Servings: 1
  • Difficulty: easy
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A personal deep dish style chaffle pizza.


  • 2 Eggs
  • 1.5 Tablespoon Almond Flour
  • 1/2 cup of Mexican cheese, or your favorite cheese blend.
  • 1/4 cup Parmesan Cheese
  • 1 Tablespoon Garlic Powder
  • 1 teaspoon Dried Oregano
  • Rao’s Marinara Sauce
  • Pepperoni
  • Pan spray


  1. Preheat a full size waffle maker and also put your oven on 425 degrees to pre-heat.
  2. In a bowl or measuring cup crack two eggs, add 1/4 cup of Mexican cheese or your favorite cheese blend and almond flour and stir. Add garlic powder, onion powder and dried oregano and stir.
  3. Once waffle maker is ready spray it with your pan spray and then add a layer of cheese to the bottom of the waffle iron. Put the mixture into the waffle iron, making sure to spread it around evenly, and then add more of the cheese to the top of it.
  4. Let it cook until the waffle maker light goes off. While that is cooking get a sheet pan and a piece of parchment paper out.
  5. Once finished take the waffle out and put it on the sheet pan with parchment paper.
  6. Add a layer of marinara sauce, then a thin layer of parmesan cheese, then pepperoni, then more cheese.
  7. Put in a pre-heated oven on 425 degrees for 5-10 minutes.

2/16 – Yay Blood Sugar!

Morning Blood Sugar

This morning I woke up, and my blood sugar was 151, which is very unusual. Yesterday it was 214. I know I’ve told you guys this before, but my blood sugar is always very high in the morning, so I’m not sure what happened. I did take some Tylenol pm last night and eat carb-free most of the day.

I think that Tylenol PM will have to be my new sleeping aid. Whenever I take the melatonin gummies or the Nyquil, my sugar is elevated.


Do you know how yesterday I made that cauliflower fried rice and pork chops? Today I thought it would be a good idea to take those leftovers and make them into a chaffle. So, I took the rice, added eggs, and cheese and put it in the mini waffle maker. Then I fried two eggs and added that with an avocado crema, which may not have been the best decision in the world because the crema was old, and my stomach started hurting an hour later. I guess you don’t need to know that part, but I like to share. I put some scallions on top as a garnish, and I also made a tik tok video of the whole thing. I did not share the stomach part with the Tik Tok people because I like you better.

Fried eggs on a cauliflower fried rice chaffle.


I have a bestie that lives in the complex, and we have begun walking together. I told her that i wanted to just walk into the complex because of my stomach thingy from above. I decided, after some Pepto, that I could make it if we went to the park down the street. We walked down there and just kept walking. We walked for over 4 miles, like seven laps, although I lost count. I didn’t want to stop, and at this point, I’m at 14k steps for the day.

After I got home, I took my blood sugar, and it was 94. My blood sugar hasn’t been this low since November 22nd. I looked back at my data because I knew it had been awhile. It’s making all of this walking worth it.


Dinner was leftovers, pork, and more cauliflower rice. The pork is so tender, seasoned perfectly, thanks to the slow bath of the sous vide.

Here is my situation. After I take a long walk, get my blood sugar down, I think that I’m worth of a treat. We have some cheesecake in the refrigerator and I really wanted to get a slice out and eat it. I stopped myself though. I thought to my self, ‘self, you can’t erase all of that hard work that you did today.’ I also thought to myself, ‘self, you can’t write to these lovely people who read your blog and let them know that you walked over four miles and ate a damn cheesecake.’ So, I have you to thank for this. Thank you for being here for me. 🙂 I had these Keto treats below instead of the cheesecake.

2/15 – Bad sleep, Keto fried rice, pepperoni and a walk


When I tell you that I love NyQuil, I mean it. If I wasn’t married, I might ask it to marry me, or at least go steady. It calms me, gives me the only restful sleep that I feel like I ever get. But, I got up this morning and checked my blood sugar, and it was 214. I was pisssed. I drank a gallon of water yesterday, woke up every two hours to pee, and no way my sugar should have been that high. So, I did some internet snooping and found that Nyquil has 20g of carbs. Also, the alcohol in it may make your sugars rise as well. You can read more about it here.


We went on a long walk today and did not eat lunch until late. I made these pizza bites in the mini waffle maker. I layered cheese, pepperoni, and then more cheese. Then we put Rao’s marinara sauce on them. They were delicious. We also ate some leftover greens that did a number on our stomachs. Too much info, I know, but tough.

Cheese and pepperoni in waffle maker
Pepperoni chaffle with marinara sauce

For dinner, I made a pork loin that I cooked in the sous vide and then seared. I made a cauliflower fried rice to go with it. See the video below for how I did it.

2/14 – Chaffles and Walking

I’m going to have to force myself to write these every day again. I’m getting off track; between the pandemic and my husband’s birthday, I’ve been awful all week.

You know you’re married, and there is a pandemic when you spend Valentine’s Day doing laundry and watching TV. It was kind of the best Valentine’s Day ever.


The good news is that I have walked a lot. Or, at least a lot more than I have in the weeks past. I’m starting to take my Fitbit challenges more seriously, and I’m doing a StepBet. If you don’t know what that is, you should check it out. It helps motivate me to make sure that I am walking because if I don’t, there is a chance I could lose money.

I need to make some goals, so I think I’m going to try to do an increase of 5% of steps each week. Last week I took 73,161 steps, so my new goal is 76,819 for the upcoming week.

Steps this week.
5% increase goal


Yesterday we had tons of BBQ. I tried to be good and stayed away from the desserts. I turned down, multiple times, cakes and cupcakes from pushers. I know they just care about me and want me to enjoy food, but it’s hard to say no to sweets. I wouldn’t have diabetes if I didn’t eat so much sweet stuff and carbs when I was younger. I just try to stay calm.

Today I had a burger with a chaffle (egg, almond flour, and shredded cheese). The burger was leftover from a few days ago; I put some cheese on it and a thousand island dressing. Then, I reached for the damn Doritos. I checked my blood sugar afterward, and it was high. I drank a whole gallon of water today and brought it down. I wasn’t going to eat, but I decided to take out a container of frozen chicken cauliflower rice soup. After I ate the Doritos, I got exhausted and did not feel well.

Burger with Chaffle Bun
Chicken Cauliflower rice soup.

I need to tell you about the fried chicken and Baked Alaska this week but I’m going to save that for another time.

I just took a NyQuil cap of Mucinex. I really hope that you can’t overdose on Mucinex. I didn’t feel very good when I woke up this morning; I had a bit of a sore throat, headache, and stuffed up. Every time I feel this way, I feel like I might be dying.

Yesterday, I ate salmon. I made a chaffle out of leftover cauliflower rice. And then for lunch, we had Mike’s deli sandwich, the perfect carb free sandwiches.

I really just want this coronavirus to be done because I’m so sick of it, and I want to get out of the house and go visit my side of the family. I’m just frustrated because I feel like many people are getting the vaccine that should not be getting the vaccine yet, and those who have diabetes and are fat like I am should be getting the vaccine a lot sooner than we are. I understand that a lot of it is because I live in a big city. But I hear things every day about how people who are young and healthy are getting the vaccine. There was a story about a woman in NYC who said she was an educator because she worked at soul cycle. I mean, come on? I promised myself I wouldn’t be pissy about this today because I was in a mood yesterday. It all comes down to I’m really missing my parents, and let’s face it, our parents aren’t getting any younger. I don’t know how many more chances I’ll get to see them, so waiting a whole year has been stressful.

I’m about to put some ribs in the sous vide, and we’re going to have barbecue ribs for dinner tonight. My husband will go to the store and get some sugar-free barbecue sauce because I don’t have any here.

Oh, I got over 10k steps yesterday! That’s good news. I feel like I’m complaining a lot in this post, so there is some good news. And, I got on the scale today and I lost 3 pounds! I’m really going to focus on water and steps today. It looks a little gray outside but I’ll get the steps in the house if I have to!

I’m becoming addicted to Tik Tok. It’s so much fun, but I have so much I have to figure out. My videos are, meh, I need to figure out the sound because, for some reason, I’m not getting the opportunity to lower the volume of the music so you can hear me more. I have to figure that out.

Listen, I’m not proud of myself, but my numbers are coming down already. My average BS on Monday was 201 (I know that is awful but just stick with me here); on Tuesday, it was 157. It’s just proof that the walking and the keto thing works. My number this morning is already a lot less than it was on Monday morning. I’m getting there and feeling better about it.

I’m not going to lie, I’m still really frightened by this virus, especially since I have diabetes. I spoke to a really good friend yesterday and she told me that she and her entire family have it. She said it was horrible. I have another friend that wants me to go on a day trip in a couple of weeks, and it makes me nervous. I just have to take it one day at a time and keep doing what I’m doing.

Yesterday, I made a chaffle. It’s an egg and cheese mixture that you put in the waffle maker. You can use it as bread. I keep seeing about it on Tik Tok but had never made it. This will be my new thing, and of course, I had to make a video about it. I used the roast beef that I’d cooked the night before, and it was perfecto!

For dinner last night, I air-fried some chicken legs, and then I made teriyaki cauliflower rice with onions, carrots, green beans, cauliflower rice, bacon, scallions, and teriyaki sauce.

I’m feeling much better today. First, I slept like a baby. When I say sleep like a baby, I mean, I slept, woke up multiple times and then went back to bed again. I felt rested when I woke up, though, which is unusual for me. Usually, I’m dragging like crazy.

This week I get out of work a little bit later than last, so I’m walking closer to 4 pm, but there is still enough sunlight, and I did an active day yesterday. We will see what today brings. I made another tik tok video, this time of me making a tuna melt with no bread in a waffle maker. I know it sounds strange unless you’ve been around keto for a while, but it was perfect. Next time, I may need to add more cheese and let it cook a little bit longer.

For dinner last night, I made roast beef that I cooked in the sous vide all day long and then air fried it for 4 minutes at 512 degrees. I also cooked some peppers and cooked green beans in the sous vide.

My sugar was a little high all day yesterday, but I’m hoping that walking and eating right today will be a better day!

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