I’m feeling very nostalgic, melancholy lately; it happens to me on Sunday mornings. I wake up, my husband goes to church, I light a candle, read a book, and get lost in my thoughts. I’m sure people wonder why I don’t go to church with my husband, and the truth is that spirituality is different for me. It’s a peaceful, introverted thing. It’s coffee, thoughts, candles on a gloomy Sunday. Let me be clear, the gloom is outside; it’s not in my heart. I feel more alive, more clear than I have in years.
If there is one thing I’ve learned with age is that we have a choice. This may be simplified, it may be too idealistic for you, but it works for me. We do have a choice with how we see things. We can constantly be bogged down by how miserable our lives are. I can easily say, ‘my life sucks; I have very little money, no savings, etc.’
Or I can change the narrative, ‘I have a good job, a husband that loves me, I’m discovering how to take care of myself, a passion for food, for discovering good things in life.’
True freedom is understanding that we have a choice in who and what we allow to have power over us. Meryl Streep.
Both of those are true, but if I live in the first narrative and not the second, my life will continue to seem bleak, harsh, etc.
I’ve been working hard on myself; okay, we don’t need to talk about my drunken night in West Hollywood on Thursday; I can’t be perfect all the time. Each day I wake up and write a quote down, I do my morning videos (you can find them on Tik Tok under the name @yourbestieron.) I try to walk at least 8k steps a day, drink water, and eat as close to plant-based as possible. My sugar is down, my weight is down, my life is getting better. I don’t have it all figured out, but I know that making consistent steps each day helps.
True freedom is also realizing that everything is temporary. This job, this apartment, these clothes, they are all temporary. Your life can, and does, change in an instant. You never know what is next; we can plan, but the truth is nothing is promised, and no matter how much you plan for something, things change.
My wish for you this Sunday morning is that you choose your own freedom, and that is peace and positivity.